Seems that this year is my waiting year. Too many situations where I just gotta wait and wait. Now am waiting for that college to hook up my stuff for my hustle to start again. Am basically pissed. I don’t understand their sick fixation on bureaucracy. I signed the form so just fill it out and give it to me. No I gotta go home and wait for them to contact me. This is so silly. So am waiting like a stranded ship and the captain has jumped overboard. I see my summer ending and I watch it resigned to the absurdity and the futility of it all. Just gotta inhale deeply and forget all that never will be. Why fret over what will never be? Still am pissed and that won’t change easily.